Running, running as fast as I can

There are so many things we can all debate about, but I think there are a few things we can all agree upon:

  • Waking up and the first thought being, “Why?”
  • Commuting to work and asking, “Why?”
  • That urge… that deep deep desire to turn your car in the other direction and drive far away and then asking yourself, “Why not?”

This was one of those weeks for me. I had this urge to just throw a dart at a map and let this dart decide my fate. I am not sure if this is a bad or good thing but my friends, family, and husband are all encouraging me to just do what I want. It’s good because I have their support, it’s bad because they are encouraging this impulsive behavior.

I can’t just go. I have a few concerns like finance and the fear of not being able to provide for my animals (we have three and they are our babies). I need a plan first. I need a plan to justify this change in life.

But for now, I will run on the treadmill or ride that stationary bike off into nowhere… sigh…

This post was somewhat of a rant, a way to unscramble my mind and to also share my current music play list. This makes my cardio work outs a bit more bearable. I am more of a “let’s move” kinda girl. I am obsessed with strength training thanks to my awesome Trainer and I love being outdoors. Running on the treadmill makes the urge to just go so much worse. Is this how vampires feel when they feel the thirst for blood?

My Playlist:

Coleman Hell- 2 Heads

Arctic Monkeys- Do I Wanna Know?

Soul Asylum-Runaway Train

Major Lazer- Lean on

Icona Pop- Love it

Charli XCX- Boom Clap

Calvin Harris- Sweet Nothing

Benny Benassi- Satisfaction

Marvin Gate- Sexual Healing

The Clash- Rock the Casbah

Falco-Rock Me Amadeus

Third Eye Blind- Semi Charmed Life

Aerosmith-Sweet Emotion

The Smashing Pumpkins- 1979

Natalie Imbruglia- Torn

Spin Doctors- Little Miss Can’t Be Wrong

The Weeknd- Earned It

Lana Del Rey- Summertime Sadness

Ariana Grande- Love Me Harder

Blue Swede- Hooked on a Feeling

Lady Gaga- Do What You Want

Ellie Goulding- Love Me Like You Do

No Doubt- Just a Girl

Taylor Swift- Out of the Woods

Do you guys ever feel this way? What’s on your playlist?



14 thoughts on “Running, running as fast as I can”

  1. I have been feeling the same way for the last few months, so I took the plunge and quit my job and am moving to another state! I was able to find an opportunity when I was really down about life, and I’m sure one will come your way too, just keep looking and planning! 🙂


      1. I’m going from California to Oregon, cost of living will be cheaper for the few years I’ll be there! The fact that I really don’t like what I do for a living is what spurred me to make a change so I decided to go back to school and get fitness certified so I can actually do what I enjoy. At the end of the day I just had to do what was going to make me happy for hopefully the rest of my life, ain’t no time like the present to make yourself happy!


  2. Pick up a copy of Bruce chatwin’s the song lines and have a read about his ideas of man being a moving beast and the constant conflict between the moving parts of ourselves and the non moving parts of ourselves. It’s inspired me no end

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    1. I see I am not the only one! I can def see why you would choose that song.

      Thank you for the support Tracy. Means a lot ❤


  3. Mehhh hope you’re feeling better. Thanks for some playlist suggestions! Just added to my Spotify playlist. Another few I really enjoy: WTF – Missy Elliot, Killing in the Name – RATM, and also Calvin Harris – Sweet Nothing (twins!). Thanks for sharing! 🙂


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